On Monday, classes will begin here at the University of Ghana and I will once again be engaged in that work of a student to which I am so well accustomed. I am eager to have work to do again. Traveling during the month of January was lovely; it was an incredible opportunity to see so much of Ghana in such a short amount of time. However, we came here as students and it seems only right that we settle into that role at the University now and cease our traveling for a little while.
And yet there is a sense in which this is particularly hard to do. I have never spent time abroad for the sole purpose of studying; I have always traveled with some sense of broader purpose or mission, naïvely thinking that I might have something special to offer to people overseas. I learned many things during these trips, and yet none of them included formal education experiences of any kind. I know how to be a student in the U.S., but do I know how to be a student abroad?
There is a deeper reason I am struggling to settle into this role, though, and that is the nagging reality that to be in this position is an immense luxury that I do not deserve. Not only am I one of a tiny global minority who is currently receiving a college education but I am one of an even smaller minority who is getting to study abroad during my time in college. How can this be happening to me?
Throughout our time traveling so far we have met numerous hardworking, brilliant, kind individuals who have never been to university and certainly have never had the opportunity to cross the Atlantic or any other ocean. I am definitely no more deserving of this opportunity than any of these people are. If anything, their abundant generosity compared with my stinginess should qualify them even more.
I am still struggling to understand the generosity of my heavenly Father that allows me to be here today, to be here to simply attend classes here in Ghana. I am once again stripped down to the basics of my faith, attempting to understand the abundant, lavish grace that has been offered me. This grace that is felt with every sunrise, with every drop of water on my lips, with every bite of fresh mango, with every smile from a stranger—in all the little joys that make up each day. While I am feeling especially unworthy of God’s grace at this time, the truth is that I am equally unworthy of all that I have back in the States.
All that I have, and all that I am is the fruit of a God who refuses to let go of those whom he loves.